Last night I went to seven:ten for the first time at EVBC. The talk was about suffering and the cross. It made me actually wonder:

How could Jesus ever not wonder why me? Why am I the part of God that has to do this?

Then, God just started to show me how every part of God, our triune God, suffered during this time.

Holy Spirit:
He wasn't able to comfort people up until Jesus was baptized
He couldn't comfort Jesus when he was on the cross
He couldn't explain when His people were in confusion and He had the anwers

Father:
He wasn't able to take His Son into His arms or keep Him from pain
He wasn't able to provide another way or pay for it Himself

Jesus:
He never did wonder why or why Me?
He accepted HIs suffering
He had to move away from His family and from Himself

All parts of God had to suffer like the widow that fed Elijah. They had to suffer before they could receive. The Spirit waited and had Self-control to be able to be with Jesus and the people at the time. The Father watched his Son sufferbefore taking Him into His ams and putting Him next to Him on the throne. He watched people mourn and didn't spoil the amazing outcome. Jesus went through the torture and sufferings of the cross so we could be His siblings. So we could be His reward.