Few people actually know about how spiritually unhealthy it was for me to be living with my parents. At times, I began to take on my parents bad characteristics. I took on my mom's insecurities and my dad's temper. It's not a good combination - trust me! Then I had an offer to move in with the Cloud's. I had been wanting that for quite some time, people had told me in the past that it would be a great place for me to live. Yet, I would never want to burden anyone or for them to feel obligated to help me out. I also didn't want for it to look like I was making a big deal out of nothing about my parents. It's just kind of hard to explain. They have never encouraged me to seek the Lord. In fact, when I was younger and I would come home from church camp - I was always so hungry for the Word. If I went in my room and read my Bible, my dad would get mad at me. He missed me after me being gone for a week, and he felt that I could always read my Bible later. It was always more important to spend time with him than for me to read the Bible or do a study. Sometimes he would say, why don't you read in here or study in here. Other times, I think he felt convicted and he would say, you should probably do that in the other room. It was always a stressful situation, and no matter what I did - I always failed them.

Now I live with the Clouds. Even though I don't see them much - it makes me so happy to go home at night. It is so much for healthy spiritually. Just to see how they all relate with each other is awesome. Last Saturday, everybody was home. It was so cute to see how Jennah was playing with Mandy, and Noah was playing with Ben. Then, Noah was playing with Mandy, and Jennah was playing with Ben. They continued switching parents and playing with each other. Both kids and parents were getting individualized attention from the other. Then, they all played together a game of Crazy 8's. It was such a blessing to be able to observe that. I love living there, and I must say I never thought that I could be blessed this much. I don't think that I could ask for a better living situation for me. They are truly an awesome, incredible family.