Last night I went to Quo Vadis. We all shared what God has been doing in our lives, and I was able to share how God has been helping me with my fears. Then, of coarse, comes an opportunity to face one of them. As we were all talking about playing the jimbay, they asked if I wanted to give it a try. I said, "No, I don't have rhythm". It's okay, you just feel it. "No, seriously, I can't hear it or feel it. I do not want to play it." Just when they stopped asking. . .

God says, "Is this another fear?"
Me, "Yes, it's pride, huh?"
God, "Yes"
Me, "Alright, so even if it is Lord, I am not going to overcome it today." I began thinking of ways I could maybe practice it at home to try it at a later date.
Me, "No, I am definitely not going to do it today. I will look and sound stupid. I can't keep a rhythm."
God, "So, I am helping you over come your fears? You just told them all about it earlier.
How about you actually do what you were talking about. Overcome it."
Me, "I can't get out of it. Fine one song, that's it."

So, I did. God finally won. It was actually fun. Who would've guessed it. Micah seems to think I kept the rhythm throughout the song. I know I messed up a little bit. But it was actually fun and I did it! Praise the LORD! After all, it's all for him anyways. He doesn't care what it sounds like.

Thinking back, I actually said to God, "Lord, I am not going to overcome it today." How can I possibly call Him Lord and not be submissive to His voice. Isn't the meaning of Lord that I am supposed to submit and serve Him? Hmmm, as I'm talking to Him, I use an oxymoron. If I am not submitting to Him, then why call Him Lord? Hello, that is so dumb of me. Like calling Him Lord makes my desire of disobedience better or not as bad. Yet, Jesus is consistent and really desires me to obey, so He did everything He could to help me be obedient. HE is good and great. Praise the LORD!, for real this time.