If anyone has ever thought that I was innocent in how I got asked not to return to CdE, think again. To clear up any misinterpretation, here are the reasons why I deserved it:

• I brought the boy I sponsor lots of food on the premises and nearly everyday. It was everything from yogurts, bananas, drinks, tacos, hamburgers and fries, candy, sandwiches, chips.... you get the picture.
• I gave him things that he was not allowed to have (air soft guns, lighters).
• I brought him things to help them make a bomb from soda cans (hairspray and lighter).
• In the beginning, I shared with the kids problems I had with some of the staff (not the main leaders) to try to help them understand it´s not just them. In Febuary, I learned my lesson and I started to try to explain to them that respecting and helping the leaders will only help them have favor and have an easier life (plus, it´s what is right).
• I corrected the kids when they misspelled words that they really didn´t need to know and gave them the meaning.
• I allowed kids at the house when I knew they didn´t have permission.

Here´s what I have done now that I realize and can see all the things I have done. I will not make these mistakes ever again. I have learned my lesson, and am repentant - not just forgiven. I have turned the other way and started to walk in it.

• I do not bring the girls to Grimac anymore. I´m not allowed to have contact with them outside of school, and so I can not do that.
• I am no longer going to write the boy I sponsored letters or see him. I wrote him a good bye letter if you will just so that he would understand the new rules that we need to follow. It will be hard, but it´s what we need to do. We are strong people and we can and will do it.
• The others will not be an issue at the new place that I am serving.

Please know that I am sure this was not an easy decision for the leaders to make, but it was a right decision. I can see it now, and I have been deserving of this for a while. I can change and I wish I could show them that, but I understand and respect their decision.

On a lighter note... Today we are celebrating Mother´s Day at the high school I teach at. I have to dress up in 2 different costumes and be a part of 2 different skits... We´re even doing one of them in the town square. I´m really nervous and I don´t really want to do it. Pray for me please.