Church today was awesome. It really spoke to my heart.

Sam B. said that he always thought of thankfulness as "being content with our blessings". I have never thought of it like that, but I really like that definition. It's so true. So many times we don't think that we would need to be content with our blessings. We think about how so many times we need to be content with the things we have problems with. Yet, there are definite times where we have to be content with our blessings as well. Sometimes we just want more and more... but God has already given us so many blessings, that we need to be content in them as well. Go Sam, Go!

Terri also talked a lot about fears and different things that get in our way to pray. See... there are times where God tells me that I need to pray a lot about something or that He will tell me to fast for it. Some of these are times that I already have complete confidence that He is going to see that thing to completion and that He will make it happen. There's no chances - they are definite, without a shadow of doubt plans. In those situations, I get this fear. Fear that if I do pray or fast for that event or situation, that when it does come to completion, that I will take some of the credit for it just because I prayed or fasted for it.

With the fear of pride and becoming like Saul (when he was later eaten by worms)... I don't pray a lot. I hold back. I hold back because 1) I would never want to be eaten by worms and 2) I would never want to be able to take credit for the work that God has clearly done. I know that this sounds stupid, but it's my honest fear.

Now, I wish that I had the truth part about that fear so that I can walk in it for the rest of my days... but I don't know it. I know that it's wrong and that there has to be a way to be obedient and not have that attitude. I know I can pray to not have that attitude, but I don't know what else...

If anyone has any suggestions, I am open to them.