Question: Do you think it's possible that dreaming can make you even more tired the next day?
In the past week, I have had some crazy, weird, and very detailed dreams. They weren't nightmares, but there were things that caused me stress and anxiety. When I woke up, I remembered my craziness and I felt exhausted. Last night, I didn't dream at all (that I remember) and I feel completely rested. I know that R.E.M. sleep is supposed to be the best, but maybe it's not.... Would these dreams be considered tremors of a sort?
Oh, and our CEO is coming into the garage this afternoon to watch how everything is done. Pray for me as that is when I usually get a little more sleepy and ready to get out of work. :)
Wednesday, February 28
Tuesday, February 20
I think I'm starting to fall in the rut of everyone else of not posting for a while, just kidding.
Life is interesting and changing in all sorts of weird situations.
My work atmosphere is different. I am in the second week of a six week project. They now want everyone to sit together, so we are. We're in the old warehouse which is really just a garage. You'd have no idea how much old CRT monitors, tower holders, sombreros, and other random crap can fill up a garage. We're all lined up next to each other staring at a dirty wall doing our work for 8+ hours a day. In the end, I don't hate it, because it does give me some good networking time. It's also extremely different than my normal job, so I like the change of pace. Yesterday, we put up a wallpaper family tree, and it's already starting to come down today. We didn't think it would be that necessary to clean the beyond dirty wall... Oh well!
It seems like everyone is getting some more pets lately. Obie & Jen, Tia, and Kent & Kradan. Ick on the new animals even if some of them are cute to look at at times. Just kidding. I hope you all enjoy them.
The Prims party was okay. I planned way to much stuff for a single 2 hour period, but I just get so excited in the planning and I can't figure out what to take out. At one point, Addi asked me if they were overwhelming me. I told her no and that it was my fault because I planned too much. Kat then agreed and said, "Yeah, you did plan a lot." True that! Well, hopefully tomorrow will be more fun for them. Mandy is coming to teach them how to do cake decorating so they can earn their Professional Adventure badge. It should be great fun.
Life is interesting and changing in all sorts of weird situations.
My work atmosphere is different. I am in the second week of a six week project. They now want everyone to sit together, so we are. We're in the old warehouse which is really just a garage. You'd have no idea how much old CRT monitors, tower holders, sombreros, and other random crap can fill up a garage. We're all lined up next to each other staring at a dirty wall doing our work for 8+ hours a day. In the end, I don't hate it, because it does give me some good networking time. It's also extremely different than my normal job, so I like the change of pace. Yesterday, we put up a wallpaper family tree, and it's already starting to come down today. We didn't think it would be that necessary to clean the beyond dirty wall... Oh well!
It seems like everyone is getting some more pets lately. Obie & Jen, Tia, and Kent & Kradan. Ick on the new animals even if some of them are cute to look at at times. Just kidding. I hope you all enjoy them.
The Prims party was okay. I planned way to much stuff for a single 2 hour period, but I just get so excited in the planning and I can't figure out what to take out. At one point, Addi asked me if they were overwhelming me. I told her no and that it was my fault because I planned too much. Kat then agreed and said, "Yeah, you did plan a lot." True that! Well, hopefully tomorrow will be more fun for them. Mandy is coming to teach them how to do cake decorating so they can earn their Professional Adventure badge. It should be great fun.
Wednesday, February 14
I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy Valentines Day. To me, this is a day to think about all of the people that I love. The list is probably 100s of people long, and so I consider myself very blessed. I love you all, and I hope that you have a wonderful day.
Remember this... God is love, and God is the provider and giver of all love. If we love lots of people or even if we have lots of people that love us....It's because of Him. It's because He's merciful enough to give other people love for us and gracious enough to give us love for other people. I'd like to think I'd like you all regardless, but let's just be honest... a lot of the time it's easy not to give God as much credit as He deserves. Yet, regardless of how or why... I love you all and I hope you have a fabulous love filled (God-filled) day. I'm looking forward to a great time in Prims tonight with our little party. :)
Remember this... God is love, and God is the provider and giver of all love. If we love lots of people or even if we have lots of people that love us....It's because of Him. It's because He's merciful enough to give other people love for us and gracious enough to give us love for other people. I'd like to think I'd like you all regardless, but let's just be honest... a lot of the time it's easy not to give God as much credit as He deserves. Yet, regardless of how or why... I love you all and I hope you have a fabulous love filled (God-filled) day. I'm looking forward to a great time in Prims tonight with our little party. :)
Monday, February 12
As most of you know, I have had some trying times since my last trip down to CdE. Yet, after an uplifting and reminding sermon at Seven:Ten, I was able to go down with the right attitude. I constantly reminded myself that they are the authorities that God has put in charge, and I needed to accept that. I took time when we first got down there to speak to them and share my heart and clear up any misunderstandings. Everything is going very well now, and I am so blessed that I had the opportunity to speak to them and have the time with them that I did.
Now for the rest of the updates... :)
When we were driving down there, we saw 2 fires on the side of the road. They were both by that plant nursery that I spoke about earlier. We went to the orphanage only to see what we should do about that... Part of me felt ignorant for even driving the extra 10 km to ask someone who would know. Well, we found out that they don't have a fire department, and that people just randomly start fires. Somehow, they are always contained. They didn't spread at all.
After we found out about that, we went to town to have some churros. When we approached the churro stand, there was a lady there with her son. I heard the little boy say the word "sponsor" and then her reply was "no". I then realized that he was talking about me and I interrupted their conversation to correct her and tell her that her son was correct. I told her that I go to the orphanage and that I know her son because he plays baseball with the boys at the orphanage and that I sponsor Jesus Humberto. She then replied with "Ohhhh Humberto!" Yep, she loves my boy. :) Anywho, Ramon remembered my name and I spoke to them for a couple of minutes. It was so awesome to be able to have a whole conversation with someone in the community and meet a mom of one of the "neighborhood" boys.
Immediately after that, I decided we should "cruise the square" like the locals. (We had to do something to entertain ourselves since the kids were in bed.) Yet, when I turned, I thought I saw one of the orphan boys. I pulled over the car, rolled down my window, and said hi to Cristian. Jessica got out of the car and hugged him, then I followed and I did my usual where I picked him up and kissed him on the cheek. He was with 2 friends and there were 3 other boys on a bench watching us (all of the boys were around 9-12). After I put him down and started talking to him, I leaned against my car and realized it wasn't him. I continued on though in case it was him... and asked him to get in the car so I can take him to CdE. After trying to make sure it wasn't him and talking to them for close to 5 minutes, I finally got back into my car to drive away, and that's when it happened... The boys fell onto the sidewalk and were laughing and rolling around. After discussing this with the other people on the trip, they thought I shouldn't share the story of me trying to pick up on random kids off of the street, but oh well. I thought it was kind of funny anyway. We all make mistakes, right?
The rest of the trip was awesome. I have to say that parts of it felt like a Super Nanny or Nanny 911 show. There were definitely times that the kids and I had to get used to things. One of the new rules is that they can't use my camera. They are now only allowed to even look at the pictures when I am flipping through them and the camera is in my hands. It's a change, but I definitely see the reason for it. Hopefully, this will help when other Americans come down too. I kept 221 pictures this weekend on Ben's camera, and I've already created a new slide show. My camera is such a piece of crap... But hey, maybe after the kids can't use it anymore the shutter button will actually stay on.
One last thing... My spanish is improving. I still don't understand a lot, but I find that I am able to use different words to get my point across and I am understanding some more. Praise God! I still need Adrian to translate at times, but one time he told me, "Just pretend like you understand like you always do." Dang it, I guess I don't fool everyone!
Now for the rest of the updates... :)
When we were driving down there, we saw 2 fires on the side of the road. They were both by that plant nursery that I spoke about earlier. We went to the orphanage only to see what we should do about that... Part of me felt ignorant for even driving the extra 10 km to ask someone who would know. Well, we found out that they don't have a fire department, and that people just randomly start fires. Somehow, they are always contained. They didn't spread at all.
After we found out about that, we went to town to have some churros. When we approached the churro stand, there was a lady there with her son. I heard the little boy say the word "sponsor" and then her reply was "no". I then realized that he was talking about me and I interrupted their conversation to correct her and tell her that her son was correct. I told her that I go to the orphanage and that I know her son because he plays baseball with the boys at the orphanage and that I sponsor Jesus Humberto. She then replied with "Ohhhh Humberto!" Yep, she loves my boy. :) Anywho, Ramon remembered my name and I spoke to them for a couple of minutes. It was so awesome to be able to have a whole conversation with someone in the community and meet a mom of one of the "neighborhood" boys.
Immediately after that, I decided we should "cruise the square" like the locals. (We had to do something to entertain ourselves since the kids were in bed.) Yet, when I turned, I thought I saw one of the orphan boys. I pulled over the car, rolled down my window, and said hi to Cristian. Jessica got out of the car and hugged him, then I followed and I did my usual where I picked him up and kissed him on the cheek. He was with 2 friends and there were 3 other boys on a bench watching us (all of the boys were around 9-12). After I put him down and started talking to him, I leaned against my car and realized it wasn't him. I continued on though in case it was him... and asked him to get in the car so I can take him to CdE. After trying to make sure it wasn't him and talking to them for close to 5 minutes, I finally got back into my car to drive away, and that's when it happened... The boys fell onto the sidewalk and were laughing and rolling around. After discussing this with the other people on the trip, they thought I shouldn't share the story of me trying to pick up on random kids off of the street, but oh well. I thought it was kind of funny anyway. We all make mistakes, right?
The rest of the trip was awesome. I have to say that parts of it felt like a Super Nanny or Nanny 911 show. There were definitely times that the kids and I had to get used to things. One of the new rules is that they can't use my camera. They are now only allowed to even look at the pictures when I am flipping through them and the camera is in my hands. It's a change, but I definitely see the reason for it. Hopefully, this will help when other Americans come down too. I kept 221 pictures this weekend on Ben's camera, and I've already created a new slide show. My camera is such a piece of crap... But hey, maybe after the kids can't use it anymore the shutter button will actually stay on.
One last thing... My spanish is improving. I still don't understand a lot, but I find that I am able to use different words to get my point across and I am understanding some more. Praise God! I still need Adrian to translate at times, but one time he told me, "Just pretend like you understand like you always do." Dang it, I guess I don't fool everyone!
Monday, February 5
Have you ever felt like a failure? Have you ever been confused? Have you ever tried to stop something?
Of course you have... Everyone has... and I am all these things right now in my own kind of way.
See, back in August, God called me to be single. I accepted it, rejoiced about it, and dealt with it. Since then, it has been surprisingly easy to have my heart faithful only to God. Yet, let's be honest. The guys at work and poker aren't anything to stumble over, and there aren't any new single, Christian guys that have popped up in my life.
Well... here's my life.
Saturday I call my cousins and make plans with them for that night. I call them to tell them I'm on my way, and they tell me that they have some other people that are coming over too... and my cousin names a guy that her husband has been wanting to hook me up with since before their wedding in Nov. of '05. Great, I immediately knew that after they made plans with me that they probably called him and invited him over too. Super! Oh well, at least I'll still get to hang out with my cousins and their 2 kids.
I get there, and I can't harass my little cousin because he's playing video games with the guy in there, and he's concentrating really hard. Time passes and the night goes on. The kids are in bed, and the other people that were there, all left. It's now just the 4 of us. Anyway, it ended out being awesome. I never expected to have fellowship with them the way that I did that night. There's certain people that you expect to have fellowship with and there are other people that you just don't... even if they are Christians. We talked about everything. My cousin ended out going to bed because she was super tired, so it was just me and the two guys. We talked about gifts, the Obie vs. Paul debate (they really liked your way of thinking Obie...thought it was a GREAT example of God's love and grace), worship songs, youth camps, churches, and so much more. I needed that fellowship badly, and I never expected to get it from them. I spend so much time with kids that sometimes I lack fellowship with adults. Don't get me wrong, I love the kids, and I love spending time with them, but I still need some good healthy adult time.
The night was good, we all went home, nothing happened per say. Often times though, the battle is within my mind. Please pray for me. I don't necessarily like this guy, but just even having the mindset of that he could be someone that I would like or could fall for later isn't good for me either. I now realize the call that God has given me, the gift He has given me, isn't always going to be easy.
Oh, by the way... A few people in my life have told me that they don't think that I will be single forever and that they think I will get married someday. It's people and comments like that get me thinking... Did God tell me that I am called to singlehood just to get me content? Did He have to go to such an extreme because I'm so extreme? Is this all a test so He can bless me in the future? Who knows... However, until He tells me different, I need to be strong, and I need to persevere in this trial.
Of course you have... Everyone has... and I am all these things right now in my own kind of way.
See, back in August, God called me to be single. I accepted it, rejoiced about it, and dealt with it. Since then, it has been surprisingly easy to have my heart faithful only to God. Yet, let's be honest. The guys at work and poker aren't anything to stumble over, and there aren't any new single, Christian guys that have popped up in my life.
Well... here's my life.
Saturday I call my cousins and make plans with them for that night. I call them to tell them I'm on my way, and they tell me that they have some other people that are coming over too... and my cousin names a guy that her husband has been wanting to hook me up with since before their wedding in Nov. of '05. Great, I immediately knew that after they made plans with me that they probably called him and invited him over too. Super! Oh well, at least I'll still get to hang out with my cousins and their 2 kids.
I get there, and I can't harass my little cousin because he's playing video games with the guy in there, and he's concentrating really hard. Time passes and the night goes on. The kids are in bed, and the other people that were there, all left. It's now just the 4 of us. Anyway, it ended out being awesome. I never expected to have fellowship with them the way that I did that night. There's certain people that you expect to have fellowship with and there are other people that you just don't... even if they are Christians. We talked about everything. My cousin ended out going to bed because she was super tired, so it was just me and the two guys. We talked about gifts, the Obie vs. Paul debate (they really liked your way of thinking Obie...thought it was a GREAT example of God's love and grace), worship songs, youth camps, churches, and so much more. I needed that fellowship badly, and I never expected to get it from them. I spend so much time with kids that sometimes I lack fellowship with adults. Don't get me wrong, I love the kids, and I love spending time with them, but I still need some good healthy adult time.
The night was good, we all went home, nothing happened per say. Often times though, the battle is within my mind. Please pray for me. I don't necessarily like this guy, but just even having the mindset of that he could be someone that I would like or could fall for later isn't good for me either. I now realize the call that God has given me, the gift He has given me, isn't always going to be easy.
Oh, by the way... A few people in my life have told me that they don't think that I will be single forever and that they think I will get married someday. It's people and comments like that get me thinking... Did God tell me that I am called to singlehood just to get me content? Did He have to go to such an extreme because I'm so extreme? Is this all a test so He can bless me in the future? Who knows... However, until He tells me different, I need to be strong, and I need to persevere in this trial.
Thursday, February 1
I have made reference to this song, and it also partly inspired my last post... so I figured I should at least post the lyrics so that everyone else can think about it too.
The Face of Love
by Sanctus Real
I've seen your face on stained glass, in colored lights
In pictures of you looking to the sky
You've been portrayed a thousand different ways
But my heart can see you better than my eyes
'Cause it's love that paints the portrait of your life
[Chorus:]
The face of love
The face of love
You look more like love every day
I've read your words in the pages of your life
And I've imagined what you were like
I may not know the shape of your face
But I can feel your heart changing mine
And your love still proves that you're alive
[Chorus:]
You are the face that changed the whole world
No one too lost for you to love
No one too low for you to serve
So give us the grace to change the world
No one too lost for me to love
No one too low for me to serve
Let us see... let us be your face
[Chorus:]
Oh, and another song that has been getting me thinking is:
Made to Love
by Toby Mac
You can get all of the lyrics here, but I am just putting my favorite parts of the song below, because it's so long.
Whatever happened to a passion I could live for
What became of the flame that made me feel more
And when did I forget that...I was made to love you
I was made to find you
I was made just for you
Made to adore you
I was made to love
And be loved by you
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said you'd keep me
Never would you leave me
I was made to love
and be loved by you
The dream's alive with my eyes opened wide
Back in the ring you've got me swinging for the grand prize
I feel the haters spittin vapors on my dreams
But I still believe
I'm reachin out, reachin up, reachin over
I feel a breeze cover me called Jehovah
And daddy I'm on my way
Cause I was made to love...I was made to love you
The Face of Love
by Sanctus Real
I've seen your face on stained glass, in colored lights
In pictures of you looking to the sky
You've been portrayed a thousand different ways
But my heart can see you better than my eyes
'Cause it's love that paints the portrait of your life
[Chorus:]
The face of love
The face of love
You look more like love every day
I've read your words in the pages of your life
And I've imagined what you were like
I may not know the shape of your face
But I can feel your heart changing mine
And your love still proves that you're alive
[Chorus:]
You are the face that changed the whole world
No one too lost for you to love
No one too low for you to serve
So give us the grace to change the world
No one too lost for me to love
No one too low for me to serve
Let us see... let us be your face
[Chorus:]
Oh, and another song that has been getting me thinking is:
Made to Love
by Toby Mac
You can get all of the lyrics here, but I am just putting my favorite parts of the song below, because it's so long.
Whatever happened to a passion I could live for
What became of the flame that made me feel more
And when did I forget that...I was made to love you
I was made to find you
I was made just for you
Made to adore you
I was made to love
And be loved by you
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said you'd keep me
Never would you leave me
I was made to love
and be loved by you
The dream's alive with my eyes opened wide
Back in the ring you've got me swinging for the grand prize
I feel the haters spittin vapors on my dreams
But I still believe
I'm reachin out, reachin up, reachin over
I feel a breeze cover me called Jehovah
And daddy I'm on my way
Cause I was made to love...I was made to love you
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