Me?
There comes a time when people call me out,
and I just want to say, "Me?"
There comes a time when I'm caught doing something,
and I just want to say, "Me?"
I want to appear innocent;
I want to appear true;
I want to appear perfect,
especially in front of everyone I call you.
then...
There comes a time that I look inside of me
and I wonder how it all happened.
How did I become all the things I hate?
How did it happen?
How did I get there?
It now leaves me the choice of where to go from here...
I see the need:
to pick myself up,
look in the mirror,
and admit what I see.
I see a person that wants to be humble,
but is prideful in many ways.
I see a person that is so ambitious,
it has caused a need to succeed.
I see a person that everyone sees as a workaholic,
but has yet to admit it to herself.
I see a person that appears to love on the outside
but is terribly impatient and hateful on the inside.
I see a person that I myself wouldn't like
but am so glad that God loves anyway.
I see a person facing her reality,
crying out,
seeking the Lord,
to help her become everything she's not
and help her not be everything she is.
Lord, thank You for pulling the mirror that I have sat on and tried to ignore for several months now and putting it right in front of my face to see. Thank You for Dina who through being obedient by giving me a simple "that's so you" smile during today's sermon helped me realize the things that You are teaching me. Lord thank You for Susie who helped me realize that the facade I have put up is not seen by all, but that You are bigger than that and You can show people like her my reality. Lord, give me the strength that I need to be able to do the things you are calling me to do. Help me do these things and not just try or say I'm going to. Thank You for constantly loving me through all of my sickness and for being my Healer.
About Me
- Hannah
- I am a 28 yr. old woman, and my biggest hope is to be a light admist this darkened world.
4 comments:
And best of all, we know all those things about you and we still love you :-)
Just like you love us despite our many flaws and failings.
Friendship is about sticking with each other despite how "they" might judge us.
Keep on following him.
This is beautiful and so heart felt. I do not belive that you can be as bad a person as you have said,because if you were you would not be able to talk and pray to our lord with such passion or ask his help. You also would not be spreadding his word with all the love and passion that you do. keep up the good work.
Steve Reed
Hannah, you are those things and more, and so am I. And we all need to just pray for God's mercy and gentle transformation. And never accept the facts about our destruction nor deny they exist.
Thank you all for your encouragement and love.
Times come along when God rebukes me and shows me my reality in a loving and encouraging way, so there is the need to keep the conviction strong so that I will follow through. God shows me how much He loves me everyday.
Please keep in your prayers during this time.
PM ~ you are correct, complacency and lack of admitting our sins are just as bad or worse than the actual acts.
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