I have been experiencing quite a bit of spiritual warefare lately, and I'm finally starting to recognize it... I was thinking on the way to work today about how the devil's best trick is to get people to believe that he doesn't exist. Well, I think there's a similar element for us Christians, and that's for us to forget that he's out there ~ even for a couple of hours or days or weeks ~ to where we will start believing that it's all in our own mind.

I have been struggling lately with just my thoughts and trying to figure out ways in which I can justify things. I knew that it's what I was doing, and I was totally able to recognize it.... Yet, I just kept thinking about how God could maybe turn a missionary friend into missionary dating... It's so completely retarded.. and I'm just being completely vulnerable and honest right now, so please don't judge me. I know that this is wrong, and I have known this all along, but sometimes the devil puts these things in your head and makes them seem like their your own hopes. Yet, they're not. They're not at all. They're not remotely close to what I would truly want. They are complete rubbish. It's just crazy. So, please pray for me that I will continue to fight these battles and be obedient to God.