Sometimes the Lord does more than we can imagine. Sometimes He uses us despite of ourselves, our abilities, and our weaknesses. God is so good.

From time to time I wonder, am I being a light in my workplace? Do others see Jesus in me? Why do I work at Insight? Is this really where God wants me? Am I a true imitator of Christ?

Then, there are days like a few weeks ago. Megan asks, "So, have you always believed in God and gone to church?" Which, when translated into Christianese is "Tell me your testimony". That was awesome.

Then, there are days like last Friday. Jason and Megan are talking about how much I know the two of them and about the two of them. Jason is worried that I know too much about him. Then Megan says to him, "Hannah does not know everything about either of us. I would never tell her everything because then she would not like either one of us." To them, my opinion of them matters. Why? Yet, they know my character. They know that I do not cuss and that I would not used the Lord's name in vain. It's to the point that if she overhears me say something that sounds like it, Megan questions what I said. Thank you Lord that she knows what I desire my character to be.

Then, there are days like today that still shock overwhelm me and my understanding. I still want to pinch and slap myself and know that it is real. I have befriended this guy named Michael lately. Not very many people like him, but for some reason, our personalities click - maybe because we are both open books. He saw the Passion of the Christ this past weekend, and that began our day long conversation about our belief/ lack of belief in God. Throughout the time I have spend getting to know him, I could not figure out where his beliefs lie. Today I found out. He is an atheist. He was a baptist until the age of 17 or 18 where he lost all his faith. Today we talked about Jesus being 100% God and 100% human, the trinity, and the neverending debate of creation vs evolution. He shared his heart with me, the things that effected his paradigm, and he was completely vulnerable. In our conversation, he said things like "spoken like a true Christian" "I try to learn as much as I can" "I believe Jesus Christ existed, I always have" "when I had found out what had happened, it effectively killed any faith I had left" finally "well its nice to communicate with a person that isn't as much of a religious fanatic as most. that's cool that you feel the way you do and I respect that entirely. I just wanted to say that I enjoyed this very much." Wow - you mean an atheist enjoyed talking about Christianity and God ALL day long?

Lord, please continue to soften Michael's heart. Please heal him and his family through all of the emotional and spiritual scars that they have. Show him that You exist and that You desire to poor Your love into his life. Provide for him the evidence he needs to know that You Jesus are the Son of God and You are God and the Creator of this world.
Lord, I also want to pray for Megan and Jason. Continue to help them through all of their problems. Continue to allow them to trust me and confide in me. Use me in any way You seem fitting. Thank You Lord for my job and the opportunities that You have given me. You are truly an amazing God and when You do the things You do, I can barely contain myself and not stand up and scream, rejoices that You are a God that moves in peoples lives. Continue to guide them in their steps and the hard predictaments that they are in. Thank You for the love that You have for them and myself. I love You for when You use me and when I feel like I am not being used. I give You glory for everything You have been doing. I praise You Lord, please help me praise You with every aspect of my life.