Lord thank You and take away all fears that I have right now. Give me and fill me up with Your love. Right now I am scared and need your help desperately. Please work everything out for Your good. Help me love You and act on that love by loving other people and worshipping You.

Father,
Make the deepest desire of my heart be for me to live to glorify You and have You glorified in me. There is nothing else that can fit Your will completely in me. Help and give me a mindset with this in mind. I want to die to my flesh, so that I may be able to walk in Your Spirit and likeness. I want to reject any part of myself and gain all of Your qualities. I need You to save me from myself, or before I know it, I will kill myself, but not to You but to the world. Save me from everything, give me Your strength.

Love,
Hannah

Lately I have been so confused of what I have been feeling. I know that what I am doing is right, that I have God's blessing, that I am in His will. Yet, at times I feel like I am having pride and lack of love and compassion. I wonder, will I have the words to express all these things? Will I make sense? Why did I take this burden on myself? Why didn't I allow God to help me? Why didn't I go to Him and let Him open my eyes sooner? Why was everyone so scared to tell me? Why didn't I listen when they actually did?

Man, I can be a dumb man. Yet, thank you Lord that You are bigger than me and all of this. Thank YOU Jesus, that You are helping me through this. Guide me Lord and show me when and how to communicate and love her through this.